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So much time was lost ... So much opportunity wasted ... So much of work done was undone ... The world takes over and we cease to follow the one true light in our lives.

So did I ... I had tons of reasons not to find the time ... But that time is done ...

As a journey of a thousand miles starts with one simple step, I start today ... once again ... my Journey back to his loving arms ... Back to the arms of Christ !

Praise be to God !!!

My eyes were closed, and now opened ....

After a long absence, and a journey filled with success and failure, I woke up today feeling down ... down for my sin, my weakness that probes me from within ... but mostly to how weak I am ... How hopeless i am when it comes to self control ....

And I read the day's word and thought for the day from my bible diary ...

"God treats us with profound patience. God Knows the day when we pledge loyalty to him only to be broken just before the sun is down. God has been patiently enduring our inconsistencies, our broken promises, our failed resolutions, not least, our wavering faith in him. God allows this dynamic because he knows that even the worst in us deserves hope. He still believes in our innate goodness despite our imperfections. God gives us countless chances to be better. He forgives our misgivings, accepts our weaknesses and even embraces our wounds. He prods us through his grace so that we can pick ourselves up from the ground where we have fallen. He has sworn to love us."

What a marvelous way to describe his love.... My Sin, My Shame ... only keeps me from his embrace ... I love you Jesus & I Need you in my life, please forgive my sins !!!

Depending on God ...

Today's Gospel

Luke 21:1-4

The Widow's Offering

Jesus looked around and saw rich men dropping their gifts in the temple treasury, and he also saw a very poor widow dropping in two little copper coins. He said, "I tell you that this poor widow put in more than all the others. For the others offered their gifts from what they had to spare of their riches. But she, poor as she is, gave all she had to live on."

Often I have spoken my own experience and how i feel towards the gospel of each day in this blog. At times I have deviated into giving advise to others through this blog. But through prayer, I have realised that my calling is not to preach but to share what i have gone through and the way that god speaks to me through each day's gospel.

Today's one is very special for me. As it is the bread and butter that i have lived on for the past year and a half.

I lost my job in May last year. Ever since, i have been depending on my music for my income and it has not been steady. Expenses have always been more than what I was able to bring home. But from the beginning, no matter how hard it was, no matter how many needs existed, I made sure to give my share of my income to god.

But times kept getting tougher. Requirements increased, opportunities decreased and I was finding it a problem to even keep my business afloat. So with time, i moved away from my offering to god and spent the little i had on my own expenses.

Today's gospel hit me light lightening. God revealed to me, that throughout the past, throughout the entire time period when i was in trouble, it was he who provided for me. I was in debt, unable to provide for my family but still, god provided. He kept us alive and well. It was at this moment that I realised that god was immensely pleased with my sacrifice. But he also reminded me, that what he expects, is not what I earn. Not the money. But my effort and time. My talents. All that I have , which was given by him, to be used for his glory and to spread his word. It is not 10% of my money that he wanted. It was 10% of my life !!!!!

And I had denied that to him, in spite of all that he had done for me.

A sinhalese hymn came to my mind. I quote the translation here for better inderstanding.

"Search for God's kingdom above all ... Praise his name .... And bask in his protection ....

Why do you worry about what to eat and what to drink ? ... If you believe in God ?

No animal burdens to cultivate and stack away food .....

The birds often sing songs of praise in his name ....

The protection and the care that the birds experience, how much more love is yours and mine to share ? ... Such is God's Love. "

Thank you my friends for your time. God Bless You and Hope you have a wonderful week ahead !!!!

True Happiness ...

Mathew 5:1-12

"Happy are those who know they are spiritually poor; the kingdom of heaven belongs to them!

Happy are those who mourn; God will comfort them!

Happy are those who are humble; They will receive what god has promised!

Happy are those whose greatest desire is to do what god requires; God will satisfy them fully!

Happy are those who are merciful to others; God will be merciful to them!

Happy are the pure in heart; They will see God!

Happy are those who will work for peace; God will call them his children!

Happy are those who are persecuted because they do what God requires; The kingdom of heaven belongs to them!

Happy are you when people insult you and persecute you and tell all kinds of evil lies against you because you are my followers. Be happy and glad, for a great reward is kept for you in heaven. This is how the prophets who lives before you were prosecuted."

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What an awesome way to start the day ! This is one of God's promises which is so simple to understand that in any situation which we are faced in, this should help us to figure out the correct thing to do.

Feel like you haven't been in touch with your inner self and god since lately ? Been having the feeling that you want to be closer to God ? But you regret not having done so earlier ? - Be Happy The Kingdom of God is yours !!!

Feel like there is nothing that no one can say to make your pain go away ? - Be happy, God himself will comfort you !!!

And so on ... any situation which you are faced with, if you feel lost, just look at what God has promised you, and find your path to his embrace and love !

Praise be to god and may you have a blessed day !!!

Did I Let Go ?

More often in life, when we are faced with an overwhelming crisis, we question god. Yes, we question him as to why this is happening to me .... Me of all people who has done so much and who has been so loyal to God ... When its clear as daylight that the world is full of sinners worse than me who are living life in a far better way than me ... Then the question in our minds is justified ... "Why Me Lord ?"

I'm ashamed to say, that I have asked this question many a times in my life. And I probably might do it in future as well. But the real question is to find out why we are asking this question again and again in our lives .... Why we feel compelled to ask this question from the one person who holds our very lives in his hands .... The only true god who loves us most .....

To answer this question is to do some soul searching of our own ....

God's love is abundant ... It flows through and around us at all times ... in all directions ... I'm sure you agree with me on this one ... But yet, the question remains , why don't we feel loved ?

There are 24 hours every day ... out of which we are busy with our very lives and this never ending fight for survival night and day ... We are always in a hurry, always panting, always searching ... even when we are drinking our coffee, we either browse through e mails, or work .... We want to be connected at all times to our phones, e mails face book or what not ... because we don't want to miss out on anything ... and then where is time for god ?

God has sowed his grains of love around us and is waiting for us to harvest them. Yet, do we have the time ? Do we at least take half an hour ( If you calculate, this is 0.12% of our day ) to spend with this one person, whose love has the power to change every gloomy night which we experience ?

This is what I realised and confirmed ... When i open up to his love ... When i take that time to pray and to experience his divine love in his arms ... Everything else falls into perspective ... The shades of gray which has blinded us, lifts and opens our eyes to a world of possibilities. This is the love which we need to make it through each day of our lives ...

So the question is ... Did God Let Go Of Your Hand ? ... Or Did You Let Go of His Hand ? ... In the answer to this question lies your salvation !!!

Praise be to God and may you have a blessed day !!!!

How Great is our God !!!!

Today's Gospel

Luke 12:4-7

"I tell you my friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot afterwords do anything worse. I will show you whom to fear: fear God, who, after killing, has the authority to throw into hell. Believe me, he is the one you must fear!

Aren't 5 Sparrows sold for two pennies ? Yet not one sparrow is forgotten by god. Even the hairs of your head have all been counted. SO do not be afraid; you are worth much more than many sparrows!"

Praise be to god for his words of love .... the words of re assurance ... the words which drive power into my veins ... because my God is alive, he is with me and he is telling me not to be afraid !!! He is telling me that he knows what I am going through ... what I have been through ... and what lies in front of me.

Someone who takes the time to do all that, can never do you any harm ... His love overpowers me ... His love drowns me ... In his love, I breathe and stay alive ... alive from all that threatens me in this world ... Nothing matters but his love !!!

So how great is our God ? .... The greatest there is and there ever will be !!!!! Praise and thanks be to his name !!!!